MANY YEARS AGO I THOUGHT I KNEW WHO I WAS, WHERE I WAS GOING AND HOW I WOULD GET THERE. TEN YEARS LATER I SIT AT MY TABLE LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW. ADMIRING THE AWESOME VIEW, MOUNTAINS, WATER, WAVES, AND TREES BENDING WITH THE WIND. ONLY TO KNOW FOR SURE RIGHT NOW. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM SUPPOSE TO DO IN LIFE. I HAVE SPENT THE LAST TEN YEARS IN TRIAL AND TRIBULATIONS AS THE BIBLE CALLS IT. I HAVE JUST STEPPED OUT OF THE FIREY INFERNO. WHAT AM I TO DO NEXT? NOW I SPEND DAYS WANTING TO TALK TO GOD BUT AFRAID THAT I WILL HAVE TO WALK THROUGH AN INFERNO AGAIN. I AM TIRED, AND FEEL LIKE THE JOURNEY HAS TO BE OVER BECAUSE I CAN NOT GO ANOTHER STEP.

MY GOAL FOR 2010 IS TO FIND ME, WHERE IS THAT PERSON WHO HAD JOY AND LAUGHED ALL THE TIME. WHERE IS THAT PERSON THAT WANTED TO BE A BLESSING ALL THE TIME TO EVERYONE. WHERE IS MY SENSE OF HUMOR.

SO, I AM ON A QUEST TO FIND ME. THE PERSON THAT GOD CREATED ME TO BE. THE PERSON THAT SAVED AND SET FREE. I SHOULD LEARN HOW TO BE FREE THEN MAYBE I CAN FIND ME. THE QUESTION OF THE DAY IS NOW TO LIVE FREE KNOWING THAT CHRIST DIED FOR ME.

I WILL SPEND TIME LISTENING TO THE SPIRIT OF GOD. THESE DAYS OF JUST DOING THINGS BECAUSE THATS WHAT OTHER PEOPLE EXPECT OF ME IS OVER. OVER AND DONE WITH. I AM FINDING ME.